Rusty Nail (2006) by Konrath Ja (Aka J Kilborn) - Jack Daniels 03

Author:Konrath, Ja (Aka J Kilborn) - Jack Daniels 03 [03, Konrath, Ja - Jack Daniels]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2011-03-25T19:13:49+00:00

Chapter 30

SLEEPING WASN'T AN option, so I left for Indianapolis early, the rising sun in my face as I headed southeast. There was a little bite of winter lingering in the air, a frigid breeze that made a jacket necessary. I wore my three-quarter-length London Fog trenchcoat, black Levi's, and a black and red blouse by Kathleen B that I picked up in a small boutique in Aurora. The blouse was made of material called poodle fabric, and had the thickness of a sweater without the bulk. For shoes, I went with Nikes -- no woman likes to drive long distances in heels.

I did a lot of thinking during the trip. If I truly was happy being miserable, as I suspected, then I'd just attained a state of euphoria.

My father died when I was young. My mom raised me, but she'd worked full-time as a police officer, and from eleven years old on I spent a lot of time alone, locked in our little apartment. I loved Mom, and appreciated all she'd done for me, but I didn't need a therapist to know I had abandonment issues. Control issues too. Chasing bad guys helped keep the issues at bay. It was easier than dragging them out into the sunlight and dealing with them.

But at times like these, when the world felt like it was falling apart around me, when it didn't look like the bad guys would ever get caught, when I needed more than ever to be strong -- I always seemed to come up short.

When I joined the police force out of college, Mom hugged me and told me how proud she was, and then begged me to quit. She was my role model. I wanted to be like her, and didn't understand why she regretted me following in her footsteps.

Now I understood. It took twenty years, but I understood. I did a lot of good things, helped a lot of people. Saved lives. Caught criminals. Made the world a better place.

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